strobe lights and blown speakers, fireworks and hurricanes, i'm not here...this isn't happening

today was a gloomy day. an eeyore day, if you will.

it didn't actually rain, but all day it looked like it might, which is worse. this type of weather does not inspire. not remotely.

i finished reading the alchemist by paulo coelho yesterday. the book was given to me by a bosnian guy named boris that i served at the bar a few weeks ago. he wrote a dedication to me that read, "every person, all the events of your life are there because you have drawn them there. what you choose to do with them is up to you." so i started reading the book a few days ago and now i can't stop thinking about it. there's a line in it that reads, "when you want something, all the world conspires in helping you achieve it". i keep repeating that phrase in my mind. say it three times and it's true. more on that later.

next week, victoria and i are going to see nine inch nails in toronto. queens of the stone age and death from above 1979 are opening so it should prove to be a fan-freakin-tastic show. i saw nin the last time they toured in '99 at the ripe old age of 16 with my ex-boyfriend jeremy. i remember being completely baffled at the uncanny ability people had in hotboxing maple leaf gardens. it is a fairly large arena, after all.


is the universe on my side?