must have lost my mind when i lost your heart key on my way out strange how you're not with me

still here
still me
still everything and nothing at all.

one coffee, two hours and numerous cigarettes later, my mind is still lost in space. stuck out in orbit like a satellite. he says there's a horror show inside of his head and i know it to be true- so why bother with punishment? in many ways, the current state of failure is punishment enough for both of us. besides, i just don't have the energy to be cruel to someone who means so much to me. despite everything, i'm not capable of such swift change. around me, everything's changed- but i still feel the same.

i'm not going anywhere